Issy - Baby, you're a firework.

I’m posting again at work! Hahaha. Ugh, it seems this is all I ever do anymore. Work, work, work. I’m really thinking of finding a home for my animals and only worrying about making enough to cover my insurance and car payment. I don’t really want to live in my city anymore. I miss where I lived (where Lexi is now) or the surrounding area actually. I think now that I’m living in a bigger city, I’ve had more opportunities but still I miss being carefree. I guess I need to stick it out here at my job for a few more months. I need a year in experience before I should really think about other things.

Ah! My leg is falling asleep right now. And my arms and neck are burning. Damn sunburns! This is going to be one long post because there is so much to tell! Saturday, Sunday, and then Monday!

I know I’ve blogged about me liking Sepi and all that jazz but when someone starts to act like a total tool/douchebag, I can’t bring myself to like them anymore. And that’s kind of what is happening. We never hung out Saturday night. He never texted me back. Not surprising. I knew the minute he mentioned it that it wasn’t going to happen. I just thought I’d give him the benefit of the doubt. I’m tired of guys when they don’t follow through with things THEY suggest. And maybe it’s not like so much as infatuation. Who knows? I sure don’t. But what I do know is that Sepi has now been placed on the back burner. I’m pretty sure in the next week or two we aren’t going to see each other. And he leaves two weeks from now I believe. Bon voyage, Sepi!

When one door closes, another one (or a window) opens! That is going to be my new saying, I think. It’s so very accurate! But let’s start off with Saturday night.

I was planning on spending it with Sepi. But when he never got back to me at around 9PM I decided, you know what? I’m not sitting home and wasting my night because of some stupid boy! I wasn’t going to sit around and wait on the phone call/text that I knew wasn’t going to happen. I hit up Roy and he told me he was heading to the pool hall with some friends. I asked who and he told me their first names. Being the best friend that I am, I had to do a little research to see how attractive Roy’s friends were for my bestie! I sent her the links. So around 11PM (I had to get ready, duh) I drove(an hour) to Lexi's and picked her up then we headed over to where Roy and his friends were. We played pool for a few hours. When the bar closed we went and got food from Wendy’s. Roy’s friend who was driving was behind us and tried to add onto Lexi’s order. It was so funny!

When we leave there, we follow the boys to Roy’s house. It’s about a twenty minute drive from where we were at. Now during that twenty minute span, we were doing crazy things. The first thing was Lexi threw a fry at the window. That started a war! It was just so funny. They would switch lanes, then I would switch lanes, and we threw a handful of fries at them and I heard Roy “I CAUGHT ONE!” lmao. Then they got behind us and turned on the blinker and I was like wtf? So I pulled into the turning lane. They flew by and were laughing at us! Jerks!

At Roy’s house we just hung out, played an olddd game, and then started watching TV. Lexi and I lay down on the floor and we saw Titanic on TV, we made the boys turn it on. Lexi and I were under a blanket and Roy’s friend said something about he was going to go cuddle with Roy. They act like lovers and it’s so funny! I texted Roy and told him I wanted to cuddle too! So he crawled around us and lay down behind me and put his arm around me. It was so cute! He started texting me asking if we were going to do anything. I told him not in front of everyone! He said there was a spare bedroom. I told him not that night because I wasn’t going to leave my friend alone with two strange boys! I’d love to have sex with Roy, don’t get me wrong. But I’m not sure if he just wants to fuck ANYTHING, or ME.

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The end of Saturday and the beginning of Sunday definitely ran into each other this weekend. We left Roy's around 5AM. Went to sleep shortly after we got back to my dad’s. We had to wake up at 9AM because we were going riding. After the first ride, Sunday was also my dad’s birthday, so we went and I bought him a present. After that we went on riding trip number two. We weren’t done until 4 PM. The horses were some we had never ridden before but they were such sweethearts. So after I took Lexi home, I had to run to help my brother out. My brother loves explosives. So, I had to go help him with his 4th of July show, since he fired three people who weren’t really working. I find it so funny because one of the people he fired was this really egotistical “marine” kid. I worked harder than he did. Also, I didn’t complain, he did. Anyway, about seven of us were working all night. One of them went home around 11PM, the rest of us stayed up until 2AM.

This is where I met Oakley. Kean, my brother’s friend, and I were trying to set up a tent. I know nothing about it so I’m just standing there and Oakley walks up behind me, touches my shoulder, and was like “Here, I’ll get it babe.” Now, if you know me, you know I don’t like to be called babe or any other endearment like that by just anyone, especially a stranger. For some reason I didn’t really mind him calling me babe. So I was like okay fine and moved away. He apologized and said he didn’t mean to just take over. I told him it was okay no worries I didn’t know what I was doing anyway. After we get the tents set up and everything I mentioned to Kean how a beer sounded good! (I wanted to drink and that was the only available alcohol :( ) Well, Oakley offered me one then went and got it and opened it for me. Kean and Oakley both smoke (ew) so we had to walk to the north end of the dock since they couldn’t be around the fireworks. We sat there for probably about 15minutes just talking. Oakley is 24 and he was the first mate/captain of the crew, his older brother was the captain. So as we start to walk back to finish working, we have caution tape up on both sides of the dock since nobody can come near the fireworks, well Oakley and Kean both hold down the caution tape for me to walk through. I’ve never had a problem walking through it before. So guess what happens? I trip over a piece of it. Oakley was teasing me like “You haven’t even had a beer and you can’t walk! We held it down so you wouldn’t trip!” Yeah, I’m a total klutz. I started to laugh because I'd had barely any beer and I had spilled it all over my pants and there was a ridiculous amount of foam in the bottle. A few more hours of work, my brother dropped a firework. Nothing happened, thank god, but we all decided to stop for a little while and take a nap.

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I woke up to the sunrise and the picture I was able to take was so awesome. It's the sunrise, the reflection on the water, the bridge to the left , and the fireworks in front! I love sunrise/sunset pictures.

We worked well into the day and Lexi came out to visit(and to get her stuff from my car)! We were standing on the dock when Oakley walked up. Somehow we started talking about the shuttle. I mentioned how I tried getting tickets to the last shuttle launch and Oakley said that he got free tickets! I was like, ":O You're going to take me with, yes??" He told me sure. Lexi was like "Make that two tickets!" He said he would and to get his number later! So we (hopefully) get to watch the last shuttle launch from the water! :)

Lexi and I were carrying boxes down to the truck to throw out. Oakley was behind us and someone was holding the tape for us again. He goes, “Don’t trip!” So as I’m going under, I don’t trip, but I hit the top of the tape with my freaking head! I’m like OMG it’s your fault! Everyone has a good laugh about that.

Nothing else eventful really happened until 8:45 when the bardge was pulled out in the river away from the dock. We get out to where we are supposed to be set at and then get back to work! Oakley threw the anchor out and then helped us. I got his number a few minutes before the show started. The show was supposed to start at 9:30! My brother needed someone to hit the switches to fire off the fireworks while he called the time. Nobody wanted to do it, so Kean was like, Amanda do you want to? Fuck ya! So my brother told me what I was going to have to do and at first I thought it was really easy. Then I started thinking about it. What if I fuck up? The City's show would be ruined as would my brothers job! Ah! But as it came down to time, you forget about your nerves and remember what you have to do. So I hit the switches every time my brother said go! Shit was falling around us, it was crazy! I thought something was going to land on me and I would've freaked out! And to see the fireworks that close up was amazing. It's such an unreal experience! I want to do it again!

After the show, my brother, my other brother, Kean, the other guy working with us, and Oakley all gave me hugs and told me it was awesome! We had to wait out there for awhile while the tubes cooled down. Oakley and I talked for a little bit just chilling while we waited. He seems like a pretty cool dude. He's a surfer. Has his own house on the beach!! When we got back to the dock my bestie was waiting for me! I love her! We hung around the dock for awhile, everyone who came by said the fireworks were awesome! It's such a cool feeling to hear you did a great job with something like that! Then there were these drunk guys who wouldn't listen to my brother. The cops came out and they were on the north end of the dock at this point. A sexy cop walked by lexi and I and we both immediately were like, "daaayyyummm" heheh. The drunk guy got tased and that was pretty funny. You could hear and feel him hit the dock!

I think that was about it for the weekend! Oh! I did get to see my cute dark-haired Walgreen's boy last night! tehe. Poor boy was sick though! His nose was all stuffed. I told him I hoped he felt better and he looked right at me and smiled saying, "thanks I hope you have a GREAT tuesday!"

I think I'm out of writing for now! Gotta finish up at work! Tomorrow Lexi's going to come stay with me and Friday bright and early we're gonna head to the shuttle launch! If Oakley isn't working that is!

Excited for Friday! <3

Issy - Up All Night

I haven’t updated all week because nothing really happened. I think the only two significant things that happened this week were seeing a cute boy at Walgreens and hopefully finding a home for my horse! It’s now Saturday and I have both Sunday and Monday off! I’m so thankful for a 3 day weekend. I’m really burnt out at work. It’s not enjoyable anymore. But hopefully tomorrow (Sunday) Lexi and I will do something!

Thursday I had to run to Walgreens to get a few items. When I went to check out the guy behind the counter was talking to his coworker and said something about he couldn't stay because he would go over. So the conversation went like this:
Him: ":) How are you today?"
Me: "I'm good! How are you? :)"
Him: "Wishing I wasn't working!"
Me: "Didn't you just say something about not being able to stay?"
Him: "I get off at 10:30 instead of 11:30!"
Me: "Well, you still get to go home sooner!"
Him: "Yeah, I have tomorrow off too! I'm going to sleep in."
Me: "Lucky! I have to get up at 6:30"
Him: "That sucks! I have to work early saturday.. Do you at least get the weekends off?"
Me: "Yep! Every weekend, all weekend!"
Him: "Nice! Take advantage of it!"
Me: "Oh, I do! Trust me! ;)"
Him: "*laughs* I wish I could... Well I do, I just regret it the next morning!"
Me: "Oh yeah! Been there done that!"
Him: "Oh really?"
Me: "Yep! Have a fun day at work Saturday! :P"
Him: "Thanks have a GREAT night!"


It was totally flirty and fun and just nice. I met him once before here and we flirted a bit then, too!

Sepi has been with his family all week and it feels like such a longgggg week without really talking to him every day. I don’t want to bother him while he’s busy! I told him I missed him Thursday night and he told me he missed me too! Argh, I shouldn’t be missing him but I can’t help it! He told me we were going to see each other before he travels this summer, so I’m looking forward to that! And then a month to get him out of my system! It shouldn’t be too hard but when he comes back I’ll probably fall right back into this! I know nothing with him is ever going to work because everything is so up in the air with him! :/

So, 26’s friend, we’ll call him Cessna, and I have known each other for a year. And before Sepi, I really liked him! I still like him though. He’s really a nice guy. A pilot, which is why I’ve given him the name Cessna! He and 26 came to visit Lexi and me last weekend, which was really cool of them because we could only hang out for like an hour. Anyway, we were talking last night and he told me to come over! So after I went to the movies with my co-worker, which was around 1am, I headed over to his place. We hung outside for a while just sitting there talking about everything. Then two of his friends came out.

Well, they were also his students but they jumped right into a conversation with me which I love when guy’s friends do that. When they are nice and make you feel included! One of them speaks Arabic and we were talking about that and he told Cessna to tell me something in Arabic. So he tells Cessna “ana baħibbik” I think there was another word in that, but after Cessna told that to me we asked his friend what it meant. He was like it means, “I love you sweetheart!” I said whoaaa and started laughing, Cessna started laughing at was like, “getting all romantic and shit dude?” Corny but cute. Anyway, we hung out with them for probably two hours. When they went inside around 3:30am, we went back to this like living area inside the building. We cuddled on the couch for a little while before we went back to Cessna’s room.

We cuddle on his bed and made out! He’s SUCH a good freaking kisser. He used to have a tongue ring and damn, I miss it! It was so hot! We fooled around a bit but nothing went far. As much as I love my best friend (she KNEW what panties I was wearing last night! “Let’s Go Streaking!”) She was totally wrong about me giving up to Cessna! Hehehe. I’ve been with him/stayed the night with him many times and still have yet to have sex with him! I don’t know what is holding me back but something is! Not sure if it’s a good or bad thing. He had to work at seven am and I left at five! I felt so bad! But he told me he wanted me to come over so he didn't mind being tired! What sucked though is I was falling asleep on my drive home! Bad!

Ah! Sepi just invited me over later today! :) I get annoyed with him and it’s amazing how quickly he can turn it around. Bad! Baahaha. I’ll update laaaaater, probably tomorrow! ;) <3 I'm off to walgreens to hopefully see the cute guy!

Issy - The Dilemma

I’m at my dads right now. And as much as I love and have missed him, he’s annoying me right now! He won’t stop bugging me. Poking me or telling me to “come here” just to mess with me! Parents! I’m writing this as I’m waiting for Lexi to come get me! We’re trying to figure out something to do tonight so we’ll have another fun-filled night.

Last night was a good night! Of course it always is with my girls Lexi and Katy! Shots, mixed drinks, cards, and boys. What more could you ask for? Not much! The only thing I had hoped was to see Sepi but instead I was around an ex-crush of mine. The really hilarious thing is that I was texting Lexi while on my way to her house (don’t text and drive, it’s very dangerous) and saying how we should “drunk stumble” onto his lawn and leave a note on his door! Well, low and behold when Katy and her boyfriend came over, her boyfriend was on the phone with old crush!

Here’s my dilemma:

I like Sepi. A lot. But I’m not sure what to do about it. If I should pursue this with him or just do my own thing. I mean, I think I should do my own thing but it sort of feels wrong. Almost like I’m cheating? But I’m not because we aren’t anything more than friends who fuck…I KNOW our pact is “no falling for summer boys” and I don’t think that I am! But it’s very confusing since I was reconnected with an old crush of mine from back when I was like 13/14! And said old-crush told me last night he always liked me too. So my question is: how do you know what is right and what is wrong? I guess I need to ignore what I feel for Sepi because I have a sinking feeling that this may not be the only time it will happen.

I can’t even think of a nickname for old crush right now so I guess I’ll start but calling him OC. Name subject to change. He kissed me a few times last night in the kitchen. You have no idea how much I wanted this boy when I was younger. I was literally head-over-heels in like with this kid years ago. And it feels amazing to get what I wanted back when. The only problem is I don’t feel the same things anymore. I'm a different person now than I was. Anyway, this morning we went and lay down in the spare bedroom at Katy’s, while Lexi got the other with Ky, and we just talked. We talked about everything. Asked questions about each other. It was nice. He told me he wouldn’t lie to me and that he was straight up honest about everything he told me. Also how weird it was that I was so grown up now. Weird in a good way, according to him. I guess I’m going to call OC in a little bit and see if he wants to hang out again tonight.

Well, I gotta go do my hair before my beeotch gets here! <3
Will update later!

Issy - TGIF

Argh! I’m so exhausted today. My dog kept me up all night with her constant whining and crying. Add onto that the few hours of sleep I got Wednesday night (morning, actually) with Sepi. But in the end, it’s all worth it. Well I’ve been meaning to blog since Tuesday and it’s now Friday! Oh well, at least I’m here now with enough time to update before my lady (Lexi) and I go out tonight! I’m currently at work right now and since I don’t get off until later this afternoon I figured now is a good time as any to blog! (Plus I’m not super busy at the moment so I have some spare time & my boss isn’t here yet! Hehe!)

As Lexi mentioned before, we’ve known each other forever. Since elementary school, kindergarten (me) and first grade (her), I believe? I remember the late afternoons at the After School Program when we would sit outside and draw in the red clay at the baseball field about our dreams of a huge house and huge barn. How in that house, we would have at least one gigantic room dedicated to our Breyers! I still think part of us wants to do that! LOL! I'm 19, will be 20 in December. I live too far from my BFF! :( Only an hour, but when you're determined to make your summer the best yet, it will be tricky! We'll manage!

Anyway, back to what this is supposed to be about! Our excellent nonstop boy summer!

This past week has been good! I’ve stayed with Sepi two nights, Monday and Wednesday! Of course this is probably the last I’ll see him for a while for at least a month as he is going traveling and until he leaves he will have some family staying with him! I hope to see him before then but if not, oh well.
Let me tell you about my boys of summer! <3 And as Lexi stated before me, their names have been changed.

Sepi - We talk all the time and I feel like he understands me as well as I understand him. But honestly I probably don’t understand him entirely yet. We are a lot alike and they say opposites attract but I think the more you have in common with someone, the better off you will be. Yes, you still need things that you can do on your own. With Sepi, I feel so comfortable and for me that’s a huge thing. I’ve really only been truly comfortable with one other guy, whom shall remain nameless because he is no longer a part of my life. Sepi gives me the nervous feeling, the good kind, the butterflies in your tummy kind of nervous. I’ve met a handful of his friends and some of them are cool, some weird. And Wednesday night it was supposed to just be us, a night to cuddle and spend time together. Four of his friends ended up showing up and we had a small party/hangout. Overall it was a good night. We had sex. I know, I know. It seems like we rushed it, but I honestly didn’t feel like we did. It felt right, not wrong. And I’m the first person to say “do whatever will make you happy as long as you won’t regret it”! My motto is live life with NO regrets! I’d love for him to be my MSB (main summer boy) but he will be gone most of this summer!

Roy – Hm, what to tell you about Roy. A thought never even crossed my mind of Roy when Lexi and I were talking about our summer of boys. But since he got in contact with me two days ago, I might as well add him into the mix! One never knows, right? Roy and I have somewhat of a history. We met through a mutual friend at the time, at Roy’s party and hit it off instantly. At the time, I was a very shy 17-year-old! We are pretty much the on and off type of friendship. We go through spurts of hanging out/talking to each other so I’m not really sure what to do here with him. He was my first kiss. I’m not sure he knows that, and I don’t plan on letting him know either! There isn’t really much to say about him other than he’s moving closer to me soon and I’m sure we’ll be seeing a lot of each other over the summer!

C – The only thing I can say about C is that he is a big baby. My condition is that if you want to be with me, you’ve got to at least attempt to hang out with my friends! And C, last weekend, threw the biggest fit in his car out in the street while Lexi and I were partying with Katy and her boyfriend! C and I do have a history together; we’ve fucked before (last year). I was uncomfortable around him, not very sure of myself and completely inexperienced, but at the same time I wanted him! He is strictly a booty call! But I’m not sure if I will use said booty call after last weekend!

Our pact is; ALAS summer girls are not to fall for any summer boys!

Anyway, back to work I must go before I get in trouble! We are having a small chili cook-off in my office between me and a coworker!
Excited for tonight! <3
Laaaater!