Issy - Baby, you're a firework.

I’m posting again at work! Hahaha. Ugh, it seems this is all I ever do anymore. Work, work, work. I’m really thinking of finding a home for my animals and only worrying about making enough to cover my insurance and car payment. I don’t really want to live in my city anymore. I miss where I lived (where Lexi is now) or the surrounding area actually. I think now that I’m living in a bigger city, I’ve had more opportunities but still I miss being carefree. I guess I need to stick it out here at my job for a few more months. I need a year in experience before I should really think about other things.

Ah! My leg is falling asleep right now. And my arms and neck are burning. Damn sunburns! This is going to be one long post because there is so much to tell! Saturday, Sunday, and then Monday!

I know I’ve blogged about me liking Sepi and all that jazz but when someone starts to act like a total tool/douchebag, I can’t bring myself to like them anymore. And that’s kind of what is happening. We never hung out Saturday night. He never texted me back. Not surprising. I knew the minute he mentioned it that it wasn’t going to happen. I just thought I’d give him the benefit of the doubt. I’m tired of guys when they don’t follow through with things THEY suggest. And maybe it’s not like so much as infatuation. Who knows? I sure don’t. But what I do know is that Sepi has now been placed on the back burner. I’m pretty sure in the next week or two we aren’t going to see each other. And he leaves two weeks from now I believe. Bon voyage, Sepi!

When one door closes, another one (or a window) opens! That is going to be my new saying, I think. It’s so very accurate! But let’s start off with Saturday night.

I was planning on spending it with Sepi. But when he never got back to me at around 9PM I decided, you know what? I’m not sitting home and wasting my night because of some stupid boy! I wasn’t going to sit around and wait on the phone call/text that I knew wasn’t going to happen. I hit up Roy and he told me he was heading to the pool hall with some friends. I asked who and he told me their first names. Being the best friend that I am, I had to do a little research to see how attractive Roy’s friends were for my bestie! I sent her the links. So around 11PM (I had to get ready, duh) I drove(an hour) to Lexi's and picked her up then we headed over to where Roy and his friends were. We played pool for a few hours. When the bar closed we went and got food from Wendy’s. Roy’s friend who was driving was behind us and tried to add onto Lexi’s order. It was so funny!

When we leave there, we follow the boys to Roy’s house. It’s about a twenty minute drive from where we were at. Now during that twenty minute span, we were doing crazy things. The first thing was Lexi threw a fry at the window. That started a war! It was just so funny. They would switch lanes, then I would switch lanes, and we threw a handful of fries at them and I heard Roy “I CAUGHT ONE!” lmao. Then they got behind us and turned on the blinker and I was like wtf? So I pulled into the turning lane. They flew by and were laughing at us! Jerks!

At Roy’s house we just hung out, played an olddd game, and then started watching TV. Lexi and I lay down on the floor and we saw Titanic on TV, we made the boys turn it on. Lexi and I were under a blanket and Roy’s friend said something about he was going to go cuddle with Roy. They act like lovers and it’s so funny! I texted Roy and told him I wanted to cuddle too! So he crawled around us and lay down behind me and put his arm around me. It was so cute! He started texting me asking if we were going to do anything. I told him not in front of everyone! He said there was a spare bedroom. I told him not that night because I wasn’t going to leave my friend alone with two strange boys! I’d love to have sex with Roy, don’t get me wrong. But I’m not sure if he just wants to fuck ANYTHING, or ME.

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The end of Saturday and the beginning of Sunday definitely ran into each other this weekend. We left Roy's around 5AM. Went to sleep shortly after we got back to my dad’s. We had to wake up at 9AM because we were going riding. After the first ride, Sunday was also my dad’s birthday, so we went and I bought him a present. After that we went on riding trip number two. We weren’t done until 4 PM. The horses were some we had never ridden before but they were such sweethearts. So after I took Lexi home, I had to run to help my brother out. My brother loves explosives. So, I had to go help him with his 4th of July show, since he fired three people who weren’t really working. I find it so funny because one of the people he fired was this really egotistical “marine” kid. I worked harder than he did. Also, I didn’t complain, he did. Anyway, about seven of us were working all night. One of them went home around 11PM, the rest of us stayed up until 2AM.

This is where I met Oakley. Kean, my brother’s friend, and I were trying to set up a tent. I know nothing about it so I’m just standing there and Oakley walks up behind me, touches my shoulder, and was like “Here, I’ll get it babe.” Now, if you know me, you know I don’t like to be called babe or any other endearment like that by just anyone, especially a stranger. For some reason I didn’t really mind him calling me babe. So I was like okay fine and moved away. He apologized and said he didn’t mean to just take over. I told him it was okay no worries I didn’t know what I was doing anyway. After we get the tents set up and everything I mentioned to Kean how a beer sounded good! (I wanted to drink and that was the only available alcohol :( ) Well, Oakley offered me one then went and got it and opened it for me. Kean and Oakley both smoke (ew) so we had to walk to the north end of the dock since they couldn’t be around the fireworks. We sat there for probably about 15minutes just talking. Oakley is 24 and he was the first mate/captain of the crew, his older brother was the captain. So as we start to walk back to finish working, we have caution tape up on both sides of the dock since nobody can come near the fireworks, well Oakley and Kean both hold down the caution tape for me to walk through. I’ve never had a problem walking through it before. So guess what happens? I trip over a piece of it. Oakley was teasing me like “You haven’t even had a beer and you can’t walk! We held it down so you wouldn’t trip!” Yeah, I’m a total klutz. I started to laugh because I'd had barely any beer and I had spilled it all over my pants and there was a ridiculous amount of foam in the bottle. A few more hours of work, my brother dropped a firework. Nothing happened, thank god, but we all decided to stop for a little while and take a nap.

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I woke up to the sunrise and the picture I was able to take was so awesome. It's the sunrise, the reflection on the water, the bridge to the left , and the fireworks in front! I love sunrise/sunset pictures.

We worked well into the day and Lexi came out to visit(and to get her stuff from my car)! We were standing on the dock when Oakley walked up. Somehow we started talking about the shuttle. I mentioned how I tried getting tickets to the last shuttle launch and Oakley said that he got free tickets! I was like, ":O You're going to take me with, yes??" He told me sure. Lexi was like "Make that two tickets!" He said he would and to get his number later! So we (hopefully) get to watch the last shuttle launch from the water! :)

Lexi and I were carrying boxes down to the truck to throw out. Oakley was behind us and someone was holding the tape for us again. He goes, “Don’t trip!” So as I’m going under, I don’t trip, but I hit the top of the tape with my freaking head! I’m like OMG it’s your fault! Everyone has a good laugh about that.

Nothing else eventful really happened until 8:45 when the bardge was pulled out in the river away from the dock. We get out to where we are supposed to be set at and then get back to work! Oakley threw the anchor out and then helped us. I got his number a few minutes before the show started. The show was supposed to start at 9:30! My brother needed someone to hit the switches to fire off the fireworks while he called the time. Nobody wanted to do it, so Kean was like, Amanda do you want to? Fuck ya! So my brother told me what I was going to have to do and at first I thought it was really easy. Then I started thinking about it. What if I fuck up? The City's show would be ruined as would my brothers job! Ah! But as it came down to time, you forget about your nerves and remember what you have to do. So I hit the switches every time my brother said go! Shit was falling around us, it was crazy! I thought something was going to land on me and I would've freaked out! And to see the fireworks that close up was amazing. It's such an unreal experience! I want to do it again!

After the show, my brother, my other brother, Kean, the other guy working with us, and Oakley all gave me hugs and told me it was awesome! We had to wait out there for awhile while the tubes cooled down. Oakley and I talked for a little bit just chilling while we waited. He seems like a pretty cool dude. He's a surfer. Has his own house on the beach!! When we got back to the dock my bestie was waiting for me! I love her! We hung around the dock for awhile, everyone who came by said the fireworks were awesome! It's such a cool feeling to hear you did a great job with something like that! Then there were these drunk guys who wouldn't listen to my brother. The cops came out and they were on the north end of the dock at this point. A sexy cop walked by lexi and I and we both immediately were like, "daaayyyummm" heheh. The drunk guy got tased and that was pretty funny. You could hear and feel him hit the dock!

I think that was about it for the weekend! Oh! I did get to see my cute dark-haired Walgreen's boy last night! tehe. Poor boy was sick though! His nose was all stuffed. I told him I hoped he felt better and he looked right at me and smiled saying, "thanks I hope you have a GREAT tuesday!"

I think I'm out of writing for now! Gotta finish up at work! Tomorrow Lexi's going to come stay with me and Friday bright and early we're gonna head to the shuttle launch! If Oakley isn't working that is!

Excited for Friday! <3

Lexi: Friday & Cuddles

I don't like lying to my parents. We agreed on a curfew during the WEEK of 1:00am. Nothing said about the weekend. I never come home on the weekends, but I do tell my parents where I am going to be. Issy's guy Roy, boy is he sexy, plays pool and we met up with him down beachside. He brought along two of his friends, Liam and I can't remember the others name at the moment (Guy2 will be his name). The two followers were brought for me, and neither of them really peaked my interest. I actually knew one of them, or at least he looked very very freakishly familiar.

I looked amazing that night. I am pretty tan, for living in Florida its a given, and green just looks amazing on me. I also whitened my teeth a little and put some foundation and coverup on. I don't like caking on the makeup or even putting on eye liner. Makeup just doesn't look right on me. Maybe it's because I don't have any and I never try, but regardless I don't wear it. I have really curly and stupid frizzy hair, so I straitened it and it looked bombshell. I had so much self confidence that night.

Anyway, I think Liam had some interest in me. He and his girlfriend of two or three years separated and he was a little upset about it, but nothing to stop him from making friends. He made me laugh a couple times, but so did Issy's guy and the other one. I ended up playing pool once or twice, I don't remember, and I think Liam and I won a game! 2:00am rolled around and I was starving. I usually don't eat when I'm around people, because of nerves, but I am getting better with going out and meeting up with guys that are there to meet with me.

I love Wendy's because they're the only thing in my town that's open all night (besides gross MCD). The guys followed us and we pull up into the drive thru. I tell issy what I want and she hollers out to the order person for my chicken nuggets. The guys pull up behind us and Guy2 hollers out "and a double cheese burger!" trying to get his order onto ours! I don't know why, but I found that to be the funniest thing of the night and just couldn't stop cracking up. He hollered out a couple other things and I was cracking up. The person didn't hear him. I got my niggets and we head off to Roy's house.

I've always wanted to have a food fight between cars. Given that it was 3:00 by now and we were alone on the road, I started throwing fries out to the guy's car. I probably missed because I couldn't aim with the wind, swerving, and just from laughing so hard. They asked us for a chicken nugget but I had eaten them all. Liam and Roy were hanging out the window and I grabbed a handful of fries and launched them! Roy caught one but I guess Liam sucks at catching because he didn't get any.

We get to Roy's around 3:30 and there isn't anything to do over there. Issy and I didn't feel like drinking so we started playing Mario Kart or something on his really old and shitty game console. Nothing exciting with that because it died on the fifth race. So we turned on the TV and watched Titanic, it was on the second half of the movie, where Rose was trying to find someone to help Jack get uncuffed. She is such a bitch, he could have totally fit on that door. Issy and I were on the floor and Roy comes down and lays next to her. Liam and Guy2 are staying on the couch, I am guessing not sure which one should make a move and come down to be next to me. Well Liam ended up making the move painfully slowly and obviously. He went from the couch.. to next to the couch on the floor.. the next to the table.. then next to me.. and ended up leaving with Guy3 by the time he actually got to sitting next to me. Issy and I decided to head to her dad's around 5, with the thought that we had to go riding at 9. I was so tired that day, even almost crashed at work at the host stand that night at work, but boy was it worth it.

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I blew off Ky for most of the weekend. I didn't mean to, but when I get with Issy, I just don't ever feel like leaving. I love her, and chicks before dicks anyway. It didn't bother him, but he really wanted to see me. He makes me feel.. I don't want to say loved, but needed and wanted. He gives affection to me, and I think that's whats making me like him so much. We went in his room when I got to his house and cuddled for a while, I told him I was tired, but I really just wanted to lay there with him. I fell asleep for a bit, maybe 5 minutes at the most, and really liked waking up in someones arms again. We sex'd twice again, and by the time we were done it was getting late and I wanted to make it to a fireworks show Issy and her brothers put together.

<3

Lexi: Fleamarket guys

I went out with my mom and sister today, because I really had nothing else to do. We have a gigantic flear market here in town, probably spread out over a good five acres or so. No matter how long you've been going there, you are bound to get lost. So were walking down the isles, and we get to the fruits and veggies. My mom and sister are doing their things finding tomatoes and watermelons, and I'm on my phone checking my bank because my phone bill is over due and I completely forgot about it (oops). I finish checking and turn around to see a Super Whipper stand with a cute guy and an older gentleman trying to sell the product. When I worked for an accounting firm, our client was the proprietor of Super Whipper, so I told the guy I wasn't really interested, but knew about them. He kept trying to convince me to buy one, and I told him I don't cook and of course neither does he. The older gentleman was now interested in our conversation, and the guy told me that if I bought three, he would give me his number. I laughed and said that I didn't need to buy any for him to do that. He chuckled and agreed. I turn my attention to a book that had people's hand written reviews about the product in it. I can see the guy write something down, and the older man laughed. So here he goes, hands me a piece of paper with his number on it. He tells me he's going to give it to me anyway, because I am beautiful (squeee!). I'm holding the paper in my hand, and here comes my mom popping over my shoulder. "Whos this?!" and I said apparently this is [name]. Then, she goes and starts playing 20 questions with this guy, and from what she asked I found out he just got out of a 4 year relationship (coincidence?), hes from New York living here in some appartments behind the mall on his own. He came down here because he came once and loved it so much he didn't want to leave, oh and he drives a Comaro (ew!). I was laughing so hard by now, because I just don't know what to think! I wasn't embarrassed because I love my mom, but just the fact that she did that was hilarious! I tell the guy bye, I plan on texting him later. He was cute, possibly not my type, but the fact that he was brave enough to do that was pretty impressive. That's the first number I've ever gotten from someone out in public, and it feels great to be beautiful and single. <3

Issy - Up All Night

I haven’t updated all week because nothing really happened. I think the only two significant things that happened this week were seeing a cute boy at Walgreens and hopefully finding a home for my horse! It’s now Saturday and I have both Sunday and Monday off! I’m so thankful for a 3 day weekend. I’m really burnt out at work. It’s not enjoyable anymore. But hopefully tomorrow (Sunday) Lexi and I will do something!

Thursday I had to run to Walgreens to get a few items. When I went to check out the guy behind the counter was talking to his coworker and said something about he couldn't stay because he would go over. So the conversation went like this:
Him: ":) How are you today?"
Me: "I'm good! How are you? :)"
Him: "Wishing I wasn't working!"
Me: "Didn't you just say something about not being able to stay?"
Him: "I get off at 10:30 instead of 11:30!"
Me: "Well, you still get to go home sooner!"
Him: "Yeah, I have tomorrow off too! I'm going to sleep in."
Me: "Lucky! I have to get up at 6:30"
Him: "That sucks! I have to work early saturday.. Do you at least get the weekends off?"
Me: "Yep! Every weekend, all weekend!"
Him: "Nice! Take advantage of it!"
Me: "Oh, I do! Trust me! ;)"
Him: "*laughs* I wish I could... Well I do, I just regret it the next morning!"
Me: "Oh yeah! Been there done that!"
Him: "Oh really?"
Me: "Yep! Have a fun day at work Saturday! :P"
Him: "Thanks have a GREAT night!"


It was totally flirty and fun and just nice. I met him once before here and we flirted a bit then, too!

Sepi has been with his family all week and it feels like such a longgggg week without really talking to him every day. I don’t want to bother him while he’s busy! I told him I missed him Thursday night and he told me he missed me too! Argh, I shouldn’t be missing him but I can’t help it! He told me we were going to see each other before he travels this summer, so I’m looking forward to that! And then a month to get him out of my system! It shouldn’t be too hard but when he comes back I’ll probably fall right back into this! I know nothing with him is ever going to work because everything is so up in the air with him! :/

So, 26’s friend, we’ll call him Cessna, and I have known each other for a year. And before Sepi, I really liked him! I still like him though. He’s really a nice guy. A pilot, which is why I’ve given him the name Cessna! He and 26 came to visit Lexi and me last weekend, which was really cool of them because we could only hang out for like an hour. Anyway, we were talking last night and he told me to come over! So after I went to the movies with my co-worker, which was around 1am, I headed over to his place. We hung outside for a while just sitting there talking about everything. Then two of his friends came out.

Well, they were also his students but they jumped right into a conversation with me which I love when guy’s friends do that. When they are nice and make you feel included! One of them speaks Arabic and we were talking about that and he told Cessna to tell me something in Arabic. So he tells Cessna “ana baħibbik” I think there was another word in that, but after Cessna told that to me we asked his friend what it meant. He was like it means, “I love you sweetheart!” I said whoaaa and started laughing, Cessna started laughing at was like, “getting all romantic and shit dude?” Corny but cute. Anyway, we hung out with them for probably two hours. When they went inside around 3:30am, we went back to this like living area inside the building. We cuddled on the couch for a little while before we went back to Cessna’s room.

We cuddle on his bed and made out! He’s SUCH a good freaking kisser. He used to have a tongue ring and damn, I miss it! It was so hot! We fooled around a bit but nothing went far. As much as I love my best friend (she KNEW what panties I was wearing last night! “Let’s Go Streaking!”) She was totally wrong about me giving up to Cessna! Hehehe. I’ve been with him/stayed the night with him many times and still have yet to have sex with him! I don’t know what is holding me back but something is! Not sure if it’s a good or bad thing. He had to work at seven am and I left at five! I felt so bad! But he told me he wanted me to come over so he didn't mind being tired! What sucked though is I was falling asleep on my drive home! Bad!

Ah! Sepi just invited me over later today! :) I get annoyed with him and it’s amazing how quickly he can turn it around. Bad! Baahaha. I’ll update laaaaater, probably tomorrow! ;) <3 I'm off to walgreens to hopefully see the cute guy!

Lexi: Couples without a Commitment

The best part of having no strings attached or friends with benefits or whatever you want to call it, is getting the attention you would if you were in a relationship, but without actually having to be committed to the guy your with. Its actually really nice. Ky and I hung out yesterday, and we didn’t sex. I don’t want to do things every time we see each other, I mean, that’s the kind of friendship we want, but for me sex isn't my main concern from him. I want to go out and go to the beach and spend time with friends together. That’s where my ex and I went wrong, we just spent time alone and fucked. The amazing thing about Ky, he’ll come over and be with my family, he’ll come to a party with my friends without needed another one of his friends tagging along, he’ll hold my hand in public and isn’t worried about what anyone else thinks about us. I’d love to go be with his friends, he invited me once but I was so exhausted from work I just went home, I didn’t even do homework I was suppose to do.

I think we could probably work out as a couple, but I want to wait for at least six more months. I’d like to have my fun when I turn 21, because you never know where I’ll end up and who I’ll meet. I’m not going to go out and be a whore or anything, but a little hookup or something every now and then should be fun. I wish there were surfers around here, because I’d love to meet a sexy surfer guy and have my fun with him like in the books or movies or songs I listen to.

:sigh: There isn't anyone else in the world I'd rather be talking to right now then him. I'm not going to bother him, becuase if he wanted to talk to me or see me, he'd say something, right? I need to get him off my mind, I'm going to call it an early night tonight. Issy should be updating soon, shes seeing someone tonight, but I don't think shes going to give up (I really doubt it though, best friend speaking ;) ) <3

Lexi: Boys Make Me Roll My Eyes.

Obbie bailed out on me. Again. He didn't even bother to return my text of "Hi" today. Rather he said "Sorry if I missed the beach today. I'm helping my gf move." I knew he wouldn't come, why did I even bother? Ah well, I'm not really upset about it. I have one guy on my mind and we didn't even talk at all today. I finally gave in and said something to him, but hes busy with someone and isn't really responding. Nothing too exciting happened today, actually, I'm pretty disappointed in my day and don't really know why I'm writing. I want to go to the beach with Ky again tomorrow, we'll see what happens. <3

Lexi: Times two.

Since I was sick this past weekend with Issy, I wasn't able to sex with Ky like we originally planned. I told him I was going to make it up to him next time we saw each other. I didn't think two days later we'd go as far as many times as we did, but it just ended up that way.

I worked all day yesterday so I was pretty tired, but for whatever reason, Ky always perks me right up as soon as I talk to him, see him, think about him, or text him. Issy is going to smack me for writing that, because we are not allowed to fall for anyone this summer. That's the whole point of being single anyway, right? So I get to his house, we chill on his couch and I was playing with his doggy, Lady. His roommate comes home and he introduces me to her. For whatever reason, it was awkward, and she seemed to have a bad day at work so I didn't really say much to her. I should have been more interactive, but I just choked and couldn't say anything. Shes older, so it really wasn't a big deal. She begins to cook dinner for herself, and we go into his room.

Now, he has a extremely squeaky small twin bed. All the better to cuddle on, I get that, but I am never on this small of a bed. Ever. And the squeaking just makes me laugh. So we're there cuddling and talking about everything. and of course you know where it goes from there. A little touch and a little kiss every now and then, leads to sex. It's been a while, so I'll just say it: I'm tight. I'm so tight that it felt so good and he went. 3 minutes into it, and hes done. Don't laugh, because if you think about it, this shit happens! He felt bad, and embarrassed, but there isn't any reason for it. Since he wasn't really saying anything, we laid there nakey in silence. It was really nice. So after a while, he tried again and this time lasted for a while. It was from behind, and felt grrrrrreat. He was being "nice", and slow, and calm, and I just told him to not be. I flipped over and he finished, and we went out back onto the couch.

He doesn't like me talking about other guys. What guy would want to hear that? But I feel so comfortable around him, that I don't even watch what I say. I feel like I can tell him everything, but of course I don't. I'm seeing Obbie tomorrow, and I plan on trying to get away with whatever I can. I liked Obbie since senior year, and being with someone around then was complete torture. Hes dating someone right now, but hes not happy with her. I asked him if it would be hard to convince him to fool around, and he said probably not. So in all reality, his gf isn't even on my mind.

Stay tuned, because this is going to be intense. ;)